On the morning of March 13, I had an electrocardiogram (ECG) test. I talked to the nurse in charge with the results. It's 3 months after the specialist's diagnosis. The graph had highs and lows, but I couldn't understand what it meant or if it was a signal. It's like taking an X-ray, looking at the film, and thinking, “What is it? The average person doesn't know what it is even though it's right in front of them, because they don't have the eyes and knowledge to read the results.

  In my community, there are Chinese medicine doctors. They check the veins and press here and there. They look at the tongue and tap on certain parts of the body to diagnose. And they're surprisingly good at guessing where you're feeling uncomfortable. And then I gently insert the needles. And then she'll adjust any tight muscles or bones that are out of balance. At the end of the treatment, the body is back to its best condition.

  Many years ago, when I was a seminary undergraduate, I took a special course in resin needling. The message was deeply imprinted. The best prescription for treatment comes from a clear diagnosis. A good doctor is sure of his diagnosis. Even if it seems to take a little bit of time, the diagnosis must be correct. After reading my ECG test results over and over again, the specialist who diagnosed me recommended that I get an ICD (Implantable Cardioverter- Defibrillator) implanted in my heart.

  He gives me three months to decide. More than an irregular heartbeat, he said, the problem is a precursor to sudden cardiac arrest. In other words, there was a risk of sudden death. After thinking positively, the Lord gave me the final conviction, and I decided to have it done. As a person of faith, I confess that life belongs to the Lord. However, I believe that God can preserve my life through modern medicine and doctors, through common grace. I am just trying to decide when to have the operation.

  I experienced God at the young age of 26 and have been in the field of ministry for the Lord for more than 30 years. In that time, I have met and fellowshipped with many people. The depth of relationships varies, especially in the last 16 years of solo ministry. I think experiences have accumulated in deeper relationships. I realized that I have become a spiritual diagnostician as a pastor. I could see the spiritual condition of the congregation like I could read the results of an ECG or X-ray.

  But the category of “spiritual” is too abstract. In other words, it can't be verified or proven. You have to be a spiritual person to communicate it, and only those who know the spiritual authority of the pastor can prescribe it. In retrospect, those who obeyed the diagnosis and prescriptions of experts in faith were healed quickly. I think it is also faith to listen carefully to the doctor God uses.